Does any of it Matter?

How do you know how you will face death until you actually face it? It will come, you know it's on its way even now but still, in that moment where you face the thing that all men have to face, how can you know what your real attitude is going to be? If you can reconcile yourself to its inevitability, to the fact that it happens to everybody, maybe there can be a kind of stoic resignation. I am sure we all want our deaths to "count for something", maybe we can die rescuing somebody, or with great courage, but does it matter if we do? Does it matter if you cure diseases or win medals, or just spend your life smoking weed, does any of it matter? Bill Gates will die just like any homeless man digging through the contents of a dumpster. Shakespeare is recognized, lauded, just as Hitler is villified, and still they are both dead, no amount of respect or hatred can bring you back. So how do you face life, and how do you face death? Is fear or ambition or love or happiness relevant to anything?